A little bit photographic, pornographic, and at times narcissistic.

A little bit of conversation, emotion and action.

A little bit geeky, sexy, freaky, and sometimes lovely.
A whole lot of something.
February 3, 2014

I feel that all this time I have been waiting. I have spent my years after college waiting and counting as the time goes by.

I don’t want to wait anymore.

I sink.
Paranoid, obsessive, I self destruct.

Honestly

I am consumed by envy.
I am filled with rage.
I am possesses by anxiety.

I know it’s wrong, but I am in despair. I am lost and I pray that I find myself soon enough because this is fucking difficult.

January 24, 2014

Ever since college I have realized, accepted and enjoyed the idea that I generally do not get what I want.

I wanted to become good in Economics. I just wasn’t.

I wanted to be Externals in Ecosoc. I was chosen for Memcom.

I wanted to be in Externals in JMA. I was placed in Internals.

I wanted to be Team Apps, I was placed in Team Mems.

I wanted to be Team Apps head, I became Team Mems Head.

I wanted to join the University Student Council. I ran and lost. That summer, I got a prized internship from P&G.

I wanted to be Adhoc Chair. I became JMA Ambassador.

I wanted to join Commwars. I became Week Chair (heading Commwars).

The list basically goes on. I have to stress though (again) that I have accepted and enjoyed everything, and I have learned to just go with it.

However, I am now thinking about the following:

1) Should I just forego the idea of “wanting” things? After all, they don’t materialize anyway.

2) Are the things I want, wrong for me? Do I tend to want wrong things?

Thoughts?

January 1, 2014
capturedphotos:

New Year in the Philippines
The view of the Metro Manila skyline from Monterey Hills in San Mateo, Rizal.
Photographed by: Paolo Nacpil  

capturedphotos:

New Year in the Philippines

The view of the Metro Manila skyline from Monterey Hills in San Mateo, Rizal.

Photographed by: Paolo Nacpil  

(via archiphile)

December 29, 2013
December 8, 2013

sci-universe:

Earth vs the other Solar System planets, starting from the Sun.

(Source: childrensmuseum.org, via ilovecharts)

November 17, 2013

pangarap:

Taking control of your life begins with taking control of how you feel. Look up. Things will get better. Feel the hope!